Tuesday, October 26, 2004
so many things been on my mind. not gonna deny tat. n mostly its about my relationship. its going fine. reli it is. hey am, hapiee 1 yr wif sara my dear! ive alwaes admire u guys for going on strong despite ur differences n i will continue to admire still. i still remember hw u din noe if u cud last wif sara bt u took tat challenge.. n hey.. look where it gt u! ure as hapie as ever! n im so hapie for u! =) i look at am, at fana.. gosh i wanna b der too.. i wanna celebrate my 1 yr wif said. i reli wan too. cant deny im afraid of wads gonna come since hes going into NS. i noe hes gonna change. i noe i'll miss him so much. i noe we're gonna b a bit apart cos he wud alwaes be in camps. but i noe tat one thing wont change.. how i feel for him. mite b easy for one to say tat i'll accept his changes n adapt to it, but its nt an easy tasks wen it actualli is happening to u. its nt easy at all. u'll qtn whether he still luvs u so much. insecurities will set in. as much as i dont wan to tink abt it nw, i still do. as much as i wanna believe im taking it step by step, im tinking bt the future. wad matter is nw. i wanna spend evey little time i haf wif him. i wanna cherish all the memories we haf of each other. i wanna make sure i made a mark in his heart tat even though theres many gerls in front of him, the oni gerl he wans is me. tats all i wan.
feeling so cranky. so moody. so sucky. so angry. so depressed. so pressurized. wadeva.
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